I miss my brother.

Hello people, I am back for another post. As stated above, yes, I miss my brother. He is my one and only brother in the world. He's younger than me by two years.

I was talking to him last night using FaceTime. We had a good chat. We used to quarrel when we were younger. Come on. Who doesn't right? I'm sure majority of the people quarrel with their siblings. 

Anyways, we were saying how our parents are getting fatter. Haha. And that they wanna lose weight but take no action about it. And how I'm fatter. My face is rounder 😱 and how my brother is now losing weight. Hilarious. 

We talked about how my mum doesn't like Kim chi. Who doesn't like Kim chi! It's so yummy! My bro and I was like "what. Kim chi is so nice. Good food. Mummy doesn't know how to eat good food". Haha. 

Ps: Daryl doesn't like Kim Chi too. 

I asked him how's his study, whether he finishes his short course for English. 

The conversation goes like this 

Bro: "Oh, finish Liao lor. I'm now studying this thingy (couldn't remember the name). Everyone needs to study this course before going to foundation.

Me: "Oh, okay. So what are you gonna study? Foundation in business?

Bro: "Yea"

Me: "Of what? Like there's commerce and other stuffs. (I don't really know too)

Bro: "Not yet, it's only foundation year"

Anyways, as we grow older, we don't really quarrel anymore. Somehow, we don't really know how to express our sibling-love. I know some friends who are very close to their siblings. We are close too, but in a unique way. 

We are both protective of each other. He protects me and I protect him. If anyone bully us, you'll get it from me. No one likes people bullying their siblings la okay. If you enjoy seeing others bullying your siblings, then I guess you need to think twice. Who is more important to you. 

I shall stop here. Needa continue with my assignment. 

Slept late yesterday. Woke up early and went to the gym. Went to another class. Body attack. It was not bad. I prefer cross punch and HIIT though. Anyways, ran for 11 minutes or so. Did some planking and Russian twists. I was so hungry, I can back straight went to shower and had my breakfast - cereal with milk. Having curry tonight. Housemate is gonna cook some curry for us. I can't wait for tonight. In the meantime, I shall continue with my assignment. 

Oh, and I came across this quote from Arnold Schwarzenegger. It inspired me because I've been, well, let's put it this way. I have not been myself lately. So this quote really waken me up, in a good way.

Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strength. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, this is strength.

Inspiring much? 

I shall stop now.

Xoxo.

I'm back.

Hello people. I am back. For another blog post. It's been months since I last blogged. Sorry about that. I've been busy. (Lame excuse) but yes, I was busy. Busy and stressed that I ended up sick. After my exam, I headed to Melbourne the next day. Enjoyed my days there for almost three weeks. Came back because I had training. Training for two weeks straight. Five days a week. Second semester commences directly after my training. Spent the first week of class with Daryl, cause it's the last week of him here in Tassie. After he got back to Melbourne, I got sick. Staying alone oversea and sick are the worst combination that one can ask for. There's no one to take care of you, nothing at all. It's now the forth week of semester two. So far, I've been loving my classes. I had less assignments to do compared to last semester. And I am more confident, at least better than when I first came. I joined gym. Trying to get fit. Haha.

I can't wait to go back to malaysia. When I was sick I really wanted to go back to malaysia so badly. I was so tempted to postpone my second semester, or do it back in malaysia (which I don't know if I can do it that way) because I was so sick and I just can't take it any longer. But in the end, I just continue with my second semester. Thankfully I'm recovering from my sickness. Not that much of homesick as compared to when I was sick.

I got so sick that I feel so helpless, hopeless. I really gave up. I don't know what to do where to go. Lost. I am lost for words. It was my first time going to the hospital, having my blood drawn, feeling so weak. Couldn't eat. Swollen lymph nodes. 

I have so much things that I want to blog, but it's still pending. 

I can't believe it's already the forth week of second semester. Another 9 more weeks to go! And I'll be back to my hometown. Mid semester break is coming! I can't wait to go to Melbourne and just enjoy my break. And I miss my boy! Gonna spend quality with him in Melbourne. Can't wait! Counting down the days till I get to see him. 

And I went to this place, where there's snow. I don't know the exact name, but yea. There's snow! It's my first time seeing snow, real life. I was so excited! The view was amazing. It was breath taking. The snow is so pure, so white. Ahh I miss that moment. I was lucky enough to have met this lady from Kuching. I met her when I was buying medicine at the pharmacy. We talked and exchange numbers. I was lucky to have met her. She was the one who asked me if I want to join her family to play toboggans. I had fun. I really enjoyed myself there. I wish Daryl was here with meeeeeeeee. 

Oh oh I joined gym right. I went to the classes and I've been loving them. So far, I've been to pump, Pilates, cross punch and hiit. I can't wait to go to the classes again. It's worth the money because the classes are free. And I have the time to go too. 

I am lucky that I met this girl from Vietnam. She's studying the same course as me but she's in her first semester. I am glad that we are in the same classes for some of the unit. I mean, we are Asians and there's not much Asians in my course. So it's really nice to have meet someone from Asia. 

Oh and I will be going to the city for my graduation. Haha. It's funny because it's my graduation for the APIS training. It's the hospitality and tourism training that I went for two weeks. 

I couldn't sleep last night (Wednesday), it must have been the coffee. Haven't been drinking coffee lately. Slept at around 5 in the morning. Haven't been sleeping this late too. Been sleeping early recently. 

I dislike being alone. I want company. Having someone to talk to is so much better than having the four walls staring at you. 

This blog post is getting longer and it doesn't make sense. I shall stop here. Till then. I will blog when I have more time. See you. Signing off.

Xoxo.

Is it important?

Hello people. I am back again.

I have been thinking. Is grading very important?

I came across this recently. I got back my assignments few days ago. I did okay for all my assignments. I passed everything.

However, my friends got higher grade than me in one of the assignments. Honestly, I felt sad. I really do. I know that I shouldn’t be sad because I passed this assignment and it was my first assignment. But then deep inside my heart, I am sad. I want to get higher grade also. I mean who wouldn’t want to get higher grade? But what’s the point of competing with your friends? What am I trying to get out of this? The fact that I passed this assignment is already good enough. Am I being greedy by expecting more from myself? Or should I push myself further? In the end, as long as I graduate that’s all that matter.

Is grading really that important? Or is it something else that matters more? 

No doubt that when you get good grades, you’ll feel happy and exhilarated. What if you didn’t get the grade you want to? But then you passed that particular exam or assignment. Shouldn’t you feel happy that you passed this particular assignment rather than having this thought of not obtaining a better grade?

I couldn't help myself but to feel sad and helpless that I did not get better grade. I know it’s normal for people to think that way. Well, at least I think it is normal and I’m pretty sure most of the people out there think the same way. But I don’t want to think this way. I am happy enough that I pass everything. As long as I learn something out of it and pass everything, it is already good enough. Why am I expecting so much from myself? Well, I should. But hey. This is my first year in University. This is my first year doing assignments. I know I can do better next time and I will. Isn't the motivation and encouragement weigh more than grading?

I feel happy for my friends who did well in their exams and assignments. I really do. But the fact that I did not do as well as they did, makes me think that I am that "small" around them. Does this make sense to you? I know I shouldn't feel this way. But I just cannot help it. I am not them. They are not me. I am me. And they are them. Why do I have to compare myself to everyone else out there? Everyone is unique in their own way. They have their own talents. Why should I be affected by how they do in their exams and assignments? As long as I know that I am more capable than I used to, isn't it good enough already?

I don't know what I am trying to get out of these. But yea. I just want to say out how I feel or think. No offense to anyone who disagrees with this.

Till next time. Lights off.

Xoxo.

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Hello people.

I am back for another blog post. This time around, I will be blogging about what I have been doing for the past few days.

I went to the Lazy Sunday event again. I really love going there. Last Sunday, we made bracelets from rubber bands. It was easy. I never knew it would be that easy. Haha. I posted a picture of the bracelet that I made on Facebook and on Instagram. Haha. Asian much. I am proud of myself le! It’s my very own handmade bracelet le. Haha. I wonder where they buy those rubber bands. Hehe. Going to get some myself and make more bracelets!

After making the bracelet, we played this game called Articulate. It’s a game where you have to describe the word, without saying it out. For example, hare. In another word, hare is a rabbit. You’re not allowed to say hare, but you can say it’s a rabbit. Then you have to guess it’s a hare. It also depends on whether the word is an action, world, people, random or something else. People and world are difficult. Seriously. I don’t know many of them. Haha. Neither good at people nor places. BUT. In the end, we still win! Me and another friend. Sorry I don’t know her name but yea, we’re a team. Hehe. It was a good game.

In my previous post, I said that I had a bad week. During one of those days, I decided to head to Coles and Woollies and get some ingredients for my brownies. I needed to bake. I searched YouTube on how to make brownies. I followed Laura in the kitchen’s recipe and bake brownies. It was very easy to make. It turned out to be pretty good too. It was my first time making brownies and I am a happy girl. Well, not really at that time, but it certainly lifts up my spirits.

That's all for now. Stay tune for another update.

Xoxo.

The lowest that I have ever been

Yes, the title said it all. Last week was bad. Things weren’t going smoothly as I want it to be. My laptop crashed on me. I don’t know what happened but it’s getting really laggy. The speakers wouldn’t work. I had to plug in the earpiece to be able to listen to the sound. When I connect the able of my phone, USB and hard disc, the icon wouldn’t come out. I couldn’t transfer my photos into the laptop and into my hard disc. I couldn’t transfer my folders into my hard disc. I couldn’t do anything. If I were to reboot my laptop, I will lose everything. I didn’t even have the chance to back up my assignments because the icon from the hard disc wouldn’t come out. I was lost. I had no idea what to do. I was devastated. Another thing, there’s no more Wi-Fi available for me to Skype with Daryl. I mean I still have Wi-Fi. But the connection speed is very slow. I had to go to the library to use the internet. The weather is getting colder each day. It’s not far to walk to the library from where I stay. But the fact that it is so cold outside, it really restrain me from walking to the library even just for that short distance. I was so sad. I lost my sense of direction. The world just collapse on me. Okay. I exaggerate. The world didn’t collapse on me. But I really lost my sense of direction. I was lost for words. I was really quiet. I was not me. I was depressed.

I cried and cried and cried. Starting from Monday. I cried so hard. Breathing became difficult. The last time I remember crying this hard was when my grandma passed away. Piles of things happen, one at a time, I couldn’t take it all and I just break down. Crying was the only solution. Well, it’s not a solution but I just feel like crying it out. I need to let it all out. I just had to.

I had no one to talk to. I mean I have. But I did not say it out. I kept it to myself. In the end, I told Daryl and I felt much better. Once again, I am a happy girl. Things got better now. This made me realise that I should be grateful and appreciate the things that happened. I mean I am already grateful and I really do appreciate the people in my life. But it made my even happier that I am more than grateful now. Does this make sense to you? I’m sorry if I confuse you. My point here is, things got better, I am happy and I am more grateful than I used to be.

Let’s pray that things get better each day. Be grateful and appreciate. 

That's all for now.

Xoxo.

27.4.2014 | Mud Run

Yes, another update!

I decided to join the Mud Run which was held on Sunday. I was in dilemma whether or not to go. I finally decided to join on Saturday. Lucky to have friends who helped me with the registration :)

It was my first time joining the mud run. I was so excited the day before because I was told there were obstacles that you'll need to go through.

OMG. I tell you. This event is extreme. Because of the mud, the obstacles are just tough. The mud is so sticky and muddy. It's so hard to move around. There is this part of the obstacle where you have to swim through the mud. The last part was tough. It was so hard so sort of "swim" through the mud. I couldn't move. I seriously could not move. Those mud is extreme.

Another obstacle that I've encountered is my shoes! I wore the wrong shoes. I didn't want to use my sports shoes cause it's still a new sports shoes. I ended up wearing my sneakers and that was the worst decision ever. Lesson learnt. Never wear sneakers for a mud run event. My shoes were stuck in the mud at the first obstacle. I was like what. This is bad. It is just the first obstacle and my shoes are stuck. It got worse. Because my sneakers are old, the sole wears off. The last few kilometers, I have to rely on my friends to help me go through those obstacles. My sneakers are way too slippery to pass through the obstacles.

It was so cold after we finish the run. I was shivering. It was really cold when the wind blows. It felt good to finally change into clean clothes. It felt even better to be able to shower. I knew I had scratches on my knees from crawling in the mud. But I never knew it would be that bad. Those scratches were quite bad I would say. Not to mention those bruises. I even have scratches on my hands. I never really got hurt that bad before. Haha. It felt like I just got into a fight. I couldn't even walk properly! Walking is an obstacle now. It hurts to walk now! I had to walk slowly, up the stairs and into my room. That was tough.

I'm still in pain. Hahahahahahah. Ohmy. It was good though. It was a good experience. Hehehhehehehe.

Till next time.

Xoxo.

26.4.2014 | Unlimited bowling for the day

Hello people! I'm back in action. Hehe. 

Went to the bowling alley on Saturday with some friends. It was my first time going to the bowling alley here. Apparently there are only two bowling alley in Tasmania. One in Launceston and another in Hobart. Woke up early to get ready. I was so tired that time. I plan to tell my housemate and just sleep in. But nope. I force myself out of the bed and showerrrr. 

Because it was a school holiday, you get to play as many times as you want for only 16.90 dollar. Haha. Unlimited game for the day! You get to play unlimited games until 5 in the evening! Worth it right! Imagine playing 10 games from 12 until 5 in the evening! 1.69 dollar per game! HAHA. Super cheap and worth it!

I think I did okay for the games. Haha. I usually wash the drains back in Kuching. BOTH DRAINS. LEFT AND RIGHT. Haha. But when I was playing the other day, I didn't wash as many drains as I did back then. Haha. Not bad right? :P 

Even took my scores. Pretty good score. Haha. I played until my hips hurt! It really hurts! Played too much of a bowling. Haha. But it was a good day. Haven't play bowling for such a long time. 

It's picture time!

First game! Not bad right! I scored 108 le! I'm proud of myself! Hahahaha. Three strikes! Hehehhehehehe.

Not bad eh? *chuckles*

122! Hahahahahahah. I'm so happy. Double strikes! :)

Anyway, I had lots of fun. 

There was this one game that me, Martin and Hubert bet. Whoever lost have to pay for the ice cream. Haha. I thought I lost it. I only scored 82. But nope, I won Martin by a point. Hahahahhahahaha. We were all laughing at him. Because he was leading. But on the 10th throw, he missed. Twice. So he only scored 81. That was such a close match. It really was. Told him that there's no need to pay for the ice cream. But he insisted. Hahahaha. A bet is a bet. It was so funny. He was so close in betting my score. It could have been me who has to pay for the ice cream. 

I really enjoyed myself at the bowling alley. I'm so going to play bowling when I go back to Kuching. Haha. I can't wait for that time to come.

Alrighty guys. It's time to sign off. Till next time.

Xoxo.