50 Random Facts About Me.

Have this thought of writing 50 random facts about me.

Seen many YouTubers posting up videos about their 50 random facts. And I wanna give it a try. Haha. 

So here it goes.

1. I'm a banana. Banana refers to someone who's Chinese but doesn't know how to write/read/speak in Chinese. But I do speak Chinese! So I guess I'm half a banana? :P 

2. I love junk food. I can eat them every day. But not anymore. :)

3. Veggies ain't my thing. 

4. Old songs' my thing! 

5. I love French Fries! I can eat French Fries all day every day! And again, not anymore :)

6. I think dogs are cute. But I will never touch them. I once tried carrying my cousin's dog. But I ended up dropping her down on the floor. :O

7. Learnt violin when I was younger.

8. I love to hit people. Watch out guys. *Evil grins* Nah kidding. I mean I do hit people. But only those I'm really really close with. So no worries :)

9. I have trust issues. I think people doesn't trust me.

10. I wanna travel to Maldives with my love ones.

11. I don't like to cook. 

12. Love collecting perfumes. 

13. I can be very cray cray when I'm high. 

14. I laugh a lot. My English teacher once told me 'Camellia, you laughed too much'. Hehe. You know how teacher always told their students that they talked too much. But not me! I laugh too much!

15. I lost my voice (sorta) during my class trip to Damai. I shout too much in the middle of the night. HAHAHAHA. Woke up to a sexy voice. Haha. 

16. Regret not taking Chinese when I was in Primary school.

17. I prefer BM more than English.

18. I love eating potatoes. Call me potato queen. ✌️

19. I cry. Quite often. 

20. 20 is my age (2014). With a freaking two in front! That's sad. 

21. I've always wanted to learn the piano. My wish came true. :)

22. 22nd of June's my birthday. 

23. I never owned a Barbie doll. Well except for one. Which I redeemed using coupons.

24. I play Red Alert! That's more like my thing. 

25. I punch the wall when I get mad. It's my way of releasing my anger. 

26. I don't mind if people say I look fat. 

27. I'm not an outgoing type of person. I'm very quiet when I'm with strangers. 

28. I used to order coke every single time I'm out to eat. But not anymore. Which is a good thing! Keep it up cam! :D

29. I once challenged myself not to eat MacDonald's for a year. But the plan failed. Because the first thing I ate after I landed in Perth was MacDonald's breakfast. :( Well at least it lasted for half a year right? :)

30. I have very heavy eye bags. My friend say I look like alien when I didn't wear specs. 

31. Coffee is the love. I can drink coffee every single day. Love the aroma of it.

32. I love kids. They are so adorable!

33. I don't read books. People's hobby is reading. But not for me. Haha. Reading (books) ain't my thing. I prefer reading news/etc on the internet. 

34. I always knock myself. And ended up getting several bruises here and there. Daryl calls me miss clumsy.

35. Loves yam stick. I can only get it during Chinese New Year. There was one year I fall sick from eating too much. Hehe.

36. I love adventurous activities. Roller coaster rides! Mountain climbing. I get really excited!!

37. I used to cut myself. But not anymore. :)

38. When I was little, I was once poured over boiling water at my back. And I cried real hard.

39. I have this bad habit of not saving people's number in my phone book. And my friend gets annoyed at me cause I'll be like 'You are?'. Hehe.

40. I used to swim when I was younger. But not anymore. Because I'm sorta allergic to the chlorine.

41. I run for my school sport's house. Long distance baby.

42. I always keep things to myself. So know that you're important to me when I tell you my stuffs.

43. I've always wanted to learn tae kwon do. Self defense to protect myself.

44. I watch YouTube videos every single day.

45. I love sushi. Yums.

46. Love my girls. The Lenians. Forever and always.

47. DJC for life.

48. I love watching basketball live! Lakers fan!

49. I've always wanted to donate blood. To help others. Still in my wishlist.

50. I had braces for more than three years.

That's all!

Xoxo.

Less than three

There's something I would like to share to all of the readers out there. 

In my entire life..... well I'm only 20), but 20 is still 20. It's still a number okay? WITH A FREAKING TWO IN FRONT. In my past relationship(s), there're two people whom at that period of time I've had a crush on them, they had a crush on me too. I would count myself lucky because both of them are great men. And I guess it's hard to find someone whom both of them like each other at the same time. True?

Alright. First thing first. I shall define great men. For me, a great men is someone who don't smoke. Cigarette in particular. Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying that people who smoke are not great men. It's just that smoking is a no-no for me. It's a turnoff for me. You're out of my list if you smoke. I wouldn't mind if they drink (as in alcoholic drinks). I mean I do. Why can't they?  They have good attitude. They're polite and respect the elders. You wouldn't want someone who doesn't call your parents when he sees them right? They are not the abusive type. They take good care of you. They take care of their families. They do house chores. And they cook. 

I've known them for quite some time already. It's funny how we were all strangers. From strangers we became friends. Close friends. And probably end up being together. No one knows what future holds. Right?

I've been in a relationship for more than three years. Well those who knows, knows. Obviously. But for those who don't, well now you know. I've been a bad girlfriend. Haha. I'm being honest. Judge if you want. Haha. We're all different. You are you. And I am me. I'm not the romantic kind of girl nor am I creative. I'm practically nothing la okay. Haha. I'm not the super clingy type of girlfriend who must see their boyfriend every single day. Nah I'm not like that. I wouldn't say I'm the caring type of person too. My boyfriend thinks I care for my friends more than I care about him. Well I agree with that. -.- But hey, I tried to care more. He really cares about me more than I do. He gives more than I do. But not for me. You know how people say in a relationship you give and take. I basically just take without giving. I mean I do give la. But not as much as compared to him. I've been a pathetic girlfriend right? Just say yes, you are very pathetic cam.

For the past three years, we.... Okay. Let just put it this way. We don't act like we're a couple. We don't do what couples do. He wants to do what couples do. But not me. I have no freaking idea why. I just don't want. I know it's my problem. It has always been my problem after all. I'm just bad at relationships. Lol. 

So last Friday, which is the 10th of January 2014. I went out with my bro (he's my senior) and another friend of ours. I was telling them about my relationship. They knew who I'm with but they didn't know that we've broken up. So I told them. And I told them how I don't like doing this and that. 

Guess what my psychology bro told me?

You don't even love him! I was like uhh.. I don't love him meh. HAHA. Maybe he's right la. It's not the love love kinda thing.

I was also telling them that I might regret if we really stop. Like stop stop. We'll never be friends again? That's something that I don't wish to happen. I want us to be friends even though we're not together. Cannot become couple then become friends la. Lol. My other senior was telling me that feeling regret is for sure. You'll definitely regret. But you just have to learn from it and not doing the same mistake over again. Think carefully before you decide whether or not you want to continue this relationship. (We were thinking of getting back together) My senior asked me to think carefully. If I were to go with this decision, what will happen? Vice-verse. Which one over-weigh which one. Then I'll have my answer. 

Honestly, me and my ex are much more happier when we broke up. We still talk, go out and laugh. I can feel that we're much more happier. Well at least for me. It's best for him too. I don't want to waste his time. That's just unfair. I guess I have a tendency of not letting go of some things. I guess I'm used to his existence that I don't want to let go. And that is obviously not love anymore. That's too dependent. But I'm really that that although we're through, we're still friends. We both agree that we have this special bond that indescribable. We probably were siblings/couples the life before. HAHAHA.

Now as for the second one, I think we like each other at around the same time. He is a very nice guy. He loves to laugh. Even the slightest things, he'll also laugh. He's one happy go lucky guy. 

I wouldn't say much about the second guy. Yet.

I guess that's all.

Till next time.

Xoxo.

PS: I probabaly missed out something. I'll edit if I remember. Hehe

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Hello people! Haven't been blogging due to my laziness.

It's a new year. New life. New goals. Pray for a good year ahead. 

To start off, braces off! Woohoo! Finally. After a long long time. Feels weird without braces. But getting used to it already. Haha.

Josh aka the retard is back. For a few days. Ugly hair. A picture of us in the car. Hehe.

Da is also back. Haven't seen her in ages.

Jacq is also back! This little girl told us different dates of her coming back to Kuching. And surprised us on the 4th of January. (She came back on the 3rd.)

Lenians + Retard | Bella Italia | 4th of January 2014.

Ordered pizza. Ate the whole thing. 😅

Meet up with some old friends after dinner! Old usual place I always hang out - Wu Cha. 

• Me • Bi Qi • Pik Ai • Freda • Joshua • Wei Wei • Jacq • Suki •

It was fun hanging out with them! 

And Chia Yi too! She joined us after. Freda went back early.

Taken on the 6.1.2014. My first jog if the year! Feels good to get my feet back on track! Been slacking for the past few months. Due to my laziness. Again. 😓 

Played laser tag the other day. 

• Kim Hao • Kua • Asyraf • Me • Joshua • Pik Ai •

Had a really fun night. Played two games. And I sweat like what! Really sweat a lot. Haha. This game requires strategies and very good aiming. Haha. Really enjoyed myself that night.

Starbucks! Haven't had Starbucks for quite some time too! Caffeine. Need to cut down in caffeine. Meet up with Louis aka my Starbucks buddy before he went back to KL. It's funny how we meet at a church during Christmas mass. Haha. How ironic. That's how we met. And that's how our friendship began. He's like a bro to me. To me, he's a very matured thinking kinda guy. Lol. 

Won free tickets to watch movie from Hitz. Haha. And also some CDs. 😊 

Tom's pizza! Reasonable price and it's yummy! 

Japanese pizza! This is delicious! No joke. Haha. It's really nice. Hehe.

Watched 47 Ronin. Not bad! It's different from any other movies. 

Watched police story (Jackie Chan movie) the other day with my mum. It's not a bad movie. It's pretty good. Watched it for free. Hehe.

A very big bowl of gu bak mee. RM 6. 

Lastly gonna end this post with a picture of me. Haha.

That's all for now.

Xoxo.

Last post in 2013.

This is gonna be the last post in 2013. This last post will be dedicated to my late grandmother. 

She passed away on the 31th of December 2002. 

Which is why this date is very important to me. 

It's been 11 years coming to 12 since she passed away.

It's the day where I cried so bad as if the world turned me down. 

The day where my aunt told me 'stop crying little girl. If you continue crying like this, you might end up blinding yourself'.

She's the one who bought me 3 ice-cream on the same day. 

I remembered very clearly of the incident because I was so happy. Ice cream's my favorite. I was over the moon.

She's the one who always buy pau and soi bee for me and my brother. 

She's the one living with us for almost a decade.

She made delicious Chinese New Year cookies. Trust me. She is very good at those. I even help her when I was younger. Those times. I really miss those times.

She couldnt remember us soon after. I was so stupid that I told my friends she's crazy. I regretted so much I could kill myself. I can't believe I said that. 

On the day she passed away, my uncle who used to always send us back home, tuition, from school and stuffs told me and my bro that my grandma passed away. I couldn't believe it. I choose not to believe.

But obviously my uncle wouldn't lie about things like that.

It's the first time I saw my dad cried. 

He couldn't send her off or something because of the Chinese pantang.

I wouldn't forget that situation.

I used to blame our maid (She takes care of my grandmother when she's ill).

I blame her because I think she's the reason why my grandmother is no longer in this world. 

I really do blame her. 

But as time goes by, I know it's not her fault. 

There's no one to be blame. 

People come and go.

I'll have to accept the fact that she's no longer here.

But she's now in a better place. 

I wanted to just put my finger around her nose to see if she's still breathing. (Like how people does in the movies)

Because I cannot accept the fact that she's forever gone.

You know how some songs reminds you of certain people? 

This song 'Huang Hun' reminds me of her. 

I don't know why. But it just reminds me of her.

It's been 11 years. 

I still miss you.

I really do.

Please pray that we all live in the pink of health, safe and wealthy.

I love you. And forever missing you.

Sincerely,

Your granddaughter.

Xoxo.

Ps: Was suppose to post this yesterday. But I didn't finish this post. So here it is. It's my first post in 2014.